In The Darkness

In the darkness
Secrets whispered
We cannot see
But we know we are heard
Hold your breath now
It ain't over
I'm not the one
To call you my girl

Let go of your pretenses
You know that I'm defenseless
Take from me no more advances
Yeah I wish to exist in the light and not the darkness

Sink my teeth in
Fingers wander
What do I need?
What do I deserve?
Hold it in dear
Our little secret
Yeah we are fine
We've got no regrets

Going Back

This hunger is so very strange
Like my soul hasn't fed in so many days
All the moments that have led
To this time and to this place

Can't parade my wood and steel string
All the notes in my head that do not sing
Bring me back to the stage
I need to get out and do my thing

I have to shake my head when it contains you
Though you never reached out, the thoughts continue
Is my silence a result of my ego?
All I have is my solitary point of view

Right now I have neither this nor that
All out of love, like a tree with no sap
Maybe that's why I am so hungry these days
Gotta feed my soul, gotta head back

(c) Rahul Chidambaran 

Rant That Does Not Rhyme

I see where I went wrong
Looking from the outside in
The turning points being obvious
All for naught though!
I cannot rewind this
I cannot redo this
This is the end and that is all

Where do I go from here?
When do I feel okay?
Every waking inactive moment is torture
The mind does not stop thinking
It gets venomous and destructive
Seeking to poison and deteriorate only myself

All I am is cynicism
Pessimism with a side-dish of stupid hope
Starved optimism slow roasted on a stick
Looking down the dark staircase into hell
Choosing between walking down and being pushed
What does it matter anyways?
Either way, I am Fucked

Screw it.

Lost

Looking inside myself to set me free
Beyond the darkness brought on by the disease
Moments of joy rarer than ever
The veils of grey they do not sever

Lost at sea of mind and time
With a fool's hope of land to find